Thank God for Joel...

Thank God for Joel...

Had a talk with Joel today... Not long, but I realised a lot of things... that I can change my perspective on...

Thank God for putting Joel in my life... He has been like a senior to me... been looking after me so much...

Thank God, Joel's really like a big brother to me...

Thank you father Lord... father... you've been so good to me, helping me find solutions to my problems... Thank you father Lord... love you heaps...

I'm super tired...

I've thought it through...

I shall not get too close to any guys in my life anymore... Keep a distance... until a guy makes me feel "wow" haha...

Anyway... Zhengyi is soooo cooL man!!!! On his guitar... hahahahahaha COOOL and I DO mean it!!!!!!

:)

Ah the randomness of this post

I was reading this book... which is called "Where Rainbows End" by Cecilia Ahern. It's about these 2 children, who grew up together... and when they were quite old they realised that they truly loved each other... anyway, it's more complicated than this simple summary... but anyway, this is my 2nd time reading it, and I still love it so much!

Then there was this part where Alex, the main male character wrote a letter to Katie, Rosie(main female character)'s daughter... and he told Rosie, " take care of your mother for me... she is very special"

I cried...

I was thinking when will there be a time, where my friends can truly tell my children, "Take care of your mum for me... she is very special"

I was thinking... will I ever have the chance to make impact in ppls life, so much so that they will tell my children... "She is really special"... Will I even ever have the chance to have a really really good guy friend in my life, who will be so special to me... And that our bond even exists further than bgr... that I know I can depend on him...

But I feel... there's never gonna really be just friends in guys and girls is there??? I don't think so... Not with close friends... in the end, someone just falls in love with the other...

Keep a distance from guys...

Maybe I truly should...

Needless to say, I am very worried now...

Timetable's very cramp...

8-6 almost everyday, with almost no breaks in between...

No chance to work...

No money...

I was very angry with God just now... was thinking... "God, why are you taking my only source of income away from me???"

I don't know what I can do now... can you tell me please???

Sigh...

Weird Dream

I need to blog this man...

I had the weirdest dream of all...

I dreamt I was working at Hollywood Hospital Pharmacy.

And I was meeting Daniel for lunch... we were supposed to be meeting at some garden at the hospital... But weirdly enough, the garden was like some magical garden, wasn't on the ground... was somewhere in the middle out there, so I had to climb stairs, and then walk through doors...

Then I saw this sign that says "Clara's lab... Garden access" and it had the cutest drawing of a little girl... So I went in, and I saw Clara there... there was no garden access... and Clara was a dentist! hahaha and she said... "Is this dentist service provided for everyone working at the hospital??? Free ah?" and I was like... "no... no..." and I rushed out... look at the clock, cuz I was pretty late and I had only 1/2 hr lunch break... So I walked out a door, that lead to the garden...

Then outside, I saw Vince and a lot of people... He was driving this really cool car... which was black, I think it was a toyota silica, it looked like one... and at the place where the toyota logo was meant to be, there were the words "About me". Then so happened Vince's friend/ family was a patient who had not long to live... Then I looked at Vince... and he mouthed the words "last dinner" and Vince was talking in fluent Chinese to his family... hahaha... and then...

Phone rang...

So I woke up...

hehee... isn't that a lot to remember about a dream???? No wonder I'm having a headache now... griNZ...

Had cell today...

Had a talk with Genesis, and we talked about some stuff... and there are a few things I really need to do, in the new semester, and coming years.

1) I want to see myself leading. A new cell... I aim to be a cell leader, and I know I will become 1

2) I want to improve my relationship with God... God has been so good to me, yet I haven't been giving enough to Him. Sometimes I wonder, He loves me so much... but I don't do enough for him. And one aspect is Worshipping him. I find it very hard still, to go out and randomly talk to people. I also find it hard to study consistently. In order to be a leader, I really have to show this quality. Made it a point to change the way I live. Bye bye to a lot of temptations. I really need you guys to pray with me for this aspect. I really want to excel... Excellence, for God

3) I want to see myself doing great things... I want to improve in my relationship with my parents. I want to evangelise to them, I want to step out in faith to tell them I'm Christian. But I don't have the faith to do that yet.

4) I want to help. I want to be an exceptional person. I need prayers. Pray with me ok?????

Thank you guys...

FYI, I passed my supp! :)

幸福也是那么的简单，简单到我们都不相信它就在我们的面前。而我们往往都让它流走了。
Translates to : Happiness is so simple, simple to the extent that we don't even believe that it is in front of us, and we usually let them flow away.

How short, yet how true. I was listening to 933 online... and I feel like the luckiest girl on earth... I LOVE 933... was listening to <<音乐日记>> which was talking about this story, about this boy and this girl. They were searching for the perfect partner. They met each other when the boy was 16, and the girl 14... and they were bewildered by how perfect each other seemed for them. They didn't believe that happiness could be so simple, so near. They left each other, so as to find out whether they were the perfect couple. They finally found out at the age of 32 and 30, that they were meant to be. How simple, yet how true the sentence is!

How lucky are you? How simple happiness is in front of you? Do you actually realise the worth of your existence, or are you very simply just a passer-by in life? Do you actually know how much you are valued at? I sincerely hope you do. I sure realise it. I am a very lucky girl... really lucky.
Life has not been a bed of roses for me, yet I feel as if I'm one of the luckiest girls on earth. :)

Listened to this song by stephanie sun, 遇见

听见冬天的离开
我在某年某月醒过来
我想我等我期待
未来却不能因此安排

阴天傍晚车窗外
未来有一个人在等待
向左向右向前看
爱要拐几个弯才来

我遇见谁会有怎样的对白
我等的人他在多远的未来
我听见风来自地铁和人海
我排著队拿著爱的号码牌
我往前飞飞过一片时间海
我们也曾在爱情里受伤害
我看著路梦的入口有点窄
我遇见你是最美丽的意外

总有一天我的谜底会解开

This song is so short, so sweet, yet so meaningful. It's one of my favourite songs... 我遇见谁会有怎样的对白, 我等的人他在多远的未来, 我听见风来自地铁和人海, 我排著队拿著爱的号码牌. Sigh... so sweet... and so meaningful... and so sad...

I love this song so much!!!!

Went for Passion booth orientation today... and had no mood to talk to a lot of ppl... haha sigh... a bit stressed... got so many things to do... and phone bill is rocket high! god of wonders, I pray you work wonders and miracles... help me with money and stuff... give me the wisdom to work my money through... god, I pray your helping hands be upon me... in jesus's name amen!

Woooo... had the most exciting day of my life... :)

Firstly, went to watch monster in law. Got tickets for the La Premiere... was super nice up there... I felt super sua ku... cuz I was like... "wow...!!!!" at a lot of things... hahahaa went into the "vip" lounge, where we could get popcorn, and drinks... there was coffee and tea available, cold drinks(diet coke, coke, sprite etc) and unlimited popcorn. Me, though had a sore throat and was coughing a lot... had to have diet coke! The only gassy drink I can bring myself to drink. Then hung out at the lounge for a bit... then went inside... The seats were super big and comfy hey... and then the walk way was pretty much abt one and a half the size of normal ones, so people can walk comfortably. I stretched my legs as far as I could, to see whether I can touch the chair in front... but to no avail. Legs too short... I thoroughly enjoyed myself heaps... It's really great to go to La Premiere... :) tho' it's prolly a once in a lifetime experience... hahaha... Of course credits go to the person who suggested it all... thanks heaps... you're a bomb...! :) It's really great hanging out with you! Met up with Joel, and picked him up to go for orientation... at 3

Then... went back to uni for orientation. Twillight tour. When I was walking around in Carousel, received a phone call from Fenny, telling me to invite at least 6 ppl to hang out tonight... and I was like praying and praying about it... really very worried, cuz I didn't know how to start. God was great... he didn't allow me to worry too much... cuz I didn't take much time to get to know people well enough to invite them out... hahaha in about 1 hr I invited 5 people... hahaha then later I managed to get 2 more, and then found out one guy I invited was with Clara, so... I got 6 people to go with me! hahaha... that was super great man...

WENT BACK TO CAROUSEL FOR MOVIE... man... watched Fantastic 4 Since I told them I've watched monster in law... and so... was all cool... hahahaa...

SO IN ALL, tho I'm really like tired, I'm really happy... those ppl seemed to enjoy hanging out with us... praise the LORD... :)

God is good... :)

I had a long talk with the cell core members today...

Genesis, our leader, Fenny, our intern, Ning and Alphonsus.

It was a really enlightening talk, and I realised what direction our cell was travelling to. Praise the Lord, I've got a different viewpoint on my new cell.

Firstly, the boys are still boys, but I no longer view them as just boys. They are leaders. Going to be leaders in future, in cell, in church. I can envision them just going up to the podium, confidently sharing their viewpoints. The canning people do have potential, and I believe that I have the potential to help in a part of their spiritual growth.

Secondly, I've decided to become more caring, and be able to get to know the people better, so that I'll have better speaking right into their life. Lord, I pray you help me, give me the people you think you want me to know better. Lord, I pray that we will have better bonding. In Jesus's name, amen.

Anyway, that's about all from cell...

Was helping out at IO orientation today... and someone annoying came along... made me super angry... I shall not point names, but HE knows who he is... I really wonder how someone can be so thick in the head, but I shall cease to comment, lest I piss people off. Anyway, yeah... I was really very angry, but shen xian was like... "what you so angry for???" Which made me think... that's right... why should I get angry with people like that? In future I shall, and WILL make myself keep my cool. I really admire Joel, who rarely loses his temper... I aim to be like him... grinZ...

Twillight tour in the evening... and Monster-In-Law in the morning!!!!

These few days I've been thinking...

I really don't like my new cell... I really really miss my old cell... cell leader... cell intern... cell members... miss them super super a lot... man...

Reasons why I don't like my new cell

1) Too many boys...
And I don't mean guys, I mean BOYS... who really have no similar topic to mine... U know when boys are still in the process of changing hormones... They are really really immature... and U don't know how to relate to them. Not that I am like very very mature, but I just don't know why I don't know HOW to talk to them

2) Jonathon Chia
He is the one and only guy I've ever went off at in my 3 years in Perth... maybe the others received the silent treatment, but he is the only one who ever irritated me to the point that I actually screamed at. Yes. I screamed at him before...

But as I was complaining to Priscilla today, she gave me a totally different and new view of my new cell... She told me that they put me in a new cell probably cuz they know I've got the potential to grow, to be able to get to know and understand new people. Then I will be able to grow better... she also told me that they probably put me in a new cell cuz they can see my potential to lead, and so then they want to spread the leaders out.

I don't know why, but that seemed to cheer me up further... and make me want to grow in my new cell... maybe that's what god means by taking us out from our comfort zone... God I pray you use me to touch more people, and help me grow in you. Help me grow, and not want to stay in the valley of baca... I want to overcome obstacles... and continue to grow in you, o lord... Lord, when I am tempted to give up, I pray you pull me back. There may be some issues in my life that I need you to pull me back... and need to overcome, and Lord, I need you in MY Life... In Jesus's name I pray, Amen

尹翔泽对善美说： "我发现你很想跟每个人拥有美好的人际关系。那是不可能的。"

其实我觉得我很像善美。可能我没有她可爱又美丽，但是，我的确很希望自己能够跟每个人拥有美好的人际关系。可能对我来说，每个人基本上是好的。你可以长篇大论的跟谈判，但我始终相信，人都是好的。所以我很向往跟每个人拥有美好人际关系。天真吧？但那却是我。就是我。真正的我。

看到了朋友的blog；她说到关于赴约之类的东西。她说到朋友如果一早约了她，而因为某种原因而爽约，并不需要感到内疚或感到似乎有些愧疚。我并不那么认为。首先，我认为赴约是一种原则。除非理由足够，不应该随随便便就爽约。我最讨厌被当作后备轮胎(spare tyre)，那就是说，因为跟别人出门，才爽约。但一早明明约好了我，又怎么能够因为跟别人出门就爽约呢？我最最讨厌这种人了。但是我觉得如果真的有理由，爽约真的无所谓。但是唯一不能原谅的，就是要跟别人出去才爽约！！！！！

哈哈

简直疯了。

其实啊，我也曾经爽约过。在这里先说一声， "对不起！" 对我那个经常要忍耐我爽约的朋友。 凯琳，谢谢你容忍我，包含我的错。我再也不会犯下同样的错误。哈哈... 其实有时候我也会很懒惰从jb 搭车去新加坡，而且塞车塞得很厉害。所以，对不起了！ ：)

I've just finished my harry potter...

VERY NICE...

Much better than the fifth book, of course I'm sure you've heard it before...

But Harry isn't returning to Hogsworth anymore... or so he says... the story's getting more and more complicated... I have got no idea... at this point of time, it doesn't seem all so interesting anymore... yet I know I'll be sorry when the whole series finishes... I mean it DOES have to finish at some point of time... she can't go on writing forever... it's getting too boring...

Dumbledore died... yes now let's keep a moment of silence to mourne the death of one of the greatest wizards of the wizarding world... 1...2...3... well he died a sad death though... I WAS SO ANGRY AT THE STUPID SNAPE... he was the one who used the avada kedavra curse on Dumbledore... In other words, killed him... and Dumbledore just told Harry to do whatever he told him to do... to protect Harry... SACRIFICE... Self sacrifice...

Sweet...

Do I sound all bitter...??? hahaha... and sarcastic...

Well... well... well...

I need to go on diet... Someone just said I've put on weight... I didn't know it was THAT obvious anymore... man... so upsetting can...

God, please help me to go on diet... please help me restrain, help me stop eating junk... and eat small portions of food only... when I'm craving stop my craving, Lord... or else, help me not grow fat even tho I eat a lot... OR... help me lose weight rapidly... like 20kg in 1 month... OR... U know what???? make everyone around me FAT!!!! :P In jesus's name, AMEN!!!!!

whatever... I am mean

I feel fat and ugly... and even fatter and uglier when I see my pictures... I feel bloated up like a balloon... I need to lose weight... man I really should... what can I do???

argh... I want to scream...

I dun want to keep feeling this way...

I hate it when I feel this way...

Yet I still do...

I ought to stop eating... completely...

Whatever...

Am contemplating the prospect of going to UK or Ireland to work after I get my license, that's about in 3 yrs time... am thinking of just going there, and work... and maybe just leave Perth... let's see how it goes... or maybe I'll come back... or maybe... get attached here, and just settle down... The last option sounds most tempting...

But I'll c where God wants to bring me...

:)

maybe back to Singapore...

I never know

Yours truly has finally realised that...

She depends too much on friends...

Yes, I think I do... I depend too much on friends...

When I first came, I depended too much on Qin yan kor kor, who listened to me whenever I was upset, bring me to mill point whenever I needed to cry, take me out whenever I needed him to. And now things have changed... we aren't as close as before anymore...

Then nowadays, I depend too much on Sheryl... Whenever I'm upset, I'll just pick up the phone and call Sheryl... and she'll just accompany me to talk... haha... then tell me jokes... tell me happy stuff... pray for me... and she'll just accompany me until I cheer up...

Hey thanks guys... I really appreciate that... Really really do...

But I suddenly wonder... is that the RIGHT thing to do???? To depend so much on friends??? What happens when suddenly the friendship dies down and you finally realise... that... you cannot depend on that person anymore??? Just move on, and find someone to depend on??? I really don't understand...

Had my supp today... the questions were relatively similar to June paper... I just didn't do it well enuff, I reckon... But it felt better than June... yet I have got no idea...

Ahh well... I should stop thinking of it, or I'll start to cry... if I really do... hahaha...

Well well... bed's beckoning to me

I AM A SURVIVOR!!!

hahaha I made TIRAMISU today...

TIRAMISU man... it has to be one of the ahem... most complicated things I've ever made in my WHOLE life... still surviving it through... thank god!

Well... tasted it just now...

The cream was too runny... I was really upset, n thought it was ruined...

THEN... Janice called me... and...

We talked... and...

I REALISED U HAVE TO LEAVE TIRAMISU OVERNIGHT TO SET!!!!!!!

smartie pants...

Just uglied my tiramisu(If there's such a word, where there isn't...

yum yum...

I love tiramisu... griNZ... esp that at CIAO ITALIA...

yum can't wait

I'm cooking fettucini ALFRESCO tomorrow for cell... hehehe... it looks yum on the recipe book... I just hope it tastes YUM as well...

God I pray U make it all good...

pray pray

:)

Battle day is on Friday... 22/7... and I am GOING TO WIN THE BATTLE...

love ya guys!

It's at times like this I wish I had a boyfriend...

Maybe PMSing...

Maybe I'm just stressed from all the study...

I wish I had a boyfriend... hahaha it's just a sudden thought...

Or... I wish I was close to Qin Yan kor kor again... I miss him so much... I miss the times he'd bring me to Mill point... so I could cry... I miss the times I could go over to his apartment, and he'd on "Kiss--Because I'm a girl" then I can cry properly... I miss going over to his apartment to kapok food... I miss him... even at my birthday... I miss him so much so much... maybe it's just this time... where I suddenly miss him...

BUT I MISS U U KNOW???

WHERE ARE U...

2 ppl in Perth... yet we meet once in 3 months, I can't believe we used to be close...

U're so far from me now...

I miss U

What the hell... I suddenly feel like I'm behaving like a little girl...

Kenjiro says:
the veri urge to rush hm n hug ur parents telling them:" thanz dad, thanz mum..... thanz 4 being always there 4 mi when i needed u most..."

Thanks Xuande... U really do understand my feelings...

I really have great fun talking to you... esp when U call me out of the blue... U know, NO ONE has ever done that??? NO ONE has called me from Singapore that often... it's always me calling back... U know... I really really appreciate you for that... although I don't say that... but... :) thanks...

I do miss my parents... heaps... And I don't care what others think... I really don't understand why people can tell me they HATE THEIR PARENTS... maybe I've always enjoyed my relationship with my parents... I really LOVE them heaps... and call me a daddy's gurl... I don't care...

Thanks Xuande...

:)

No one's posting comments on my tag...

THAT IS SAD

haha nah kidding

Introducing a blog I really like a lot...

http://kurios1978.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/

My cousin's blog... full of pictures... super interesting...

Bewitched

I watched BEWITCHED today... starring Nicole Kidman and Will Ferrell... I liked it soooooo much!!!! Was a MOVIE of the TV series, I ended up laughing my way through the show... really enjoyed it... man...

I wish more movies of this sort would come out... griNZ... really wish so... There's one called "The Perfect Man" starring Hilary Duff... griNZ... I WANT TO WATCH IT!!!!! aaaa... bewitched really was the sort that didn't need further thinking... hahaha a great break from my studies...

ahhhhhh.... Studies, books, GO AWAY!!!! Can't wait to lie in bed and focus on my Harry Potter... super miss him... a LOT!!!!!!! :P

He's cute... dun U reckon????? oh and I meant Harry Potter

ME!

I AM A BIMBO...

Really a BIMBO...

Tell U guys what happened...

Passion set up a booth at Curtin, to promote River Cruise, and for us to help people, to get to know people... and guess what... Shen Xian was talking to Sheryl today... and he asked her if she got contacts...

And instinctively, I thought "Hang on a second... I thought Sheryl's already wearing contacts?????" OK BLUR ME right... nevermind... Stupid... means stupid...

I read something really interesting today...! hahaha... guess what??? I was studying on Type IV hypersensitivity, and read on something on tuberculin reaction. It's when they inject tuberculin, or proteins into your body, and if you have been exposed to TB enuff, and have the antibodies, the area of injection swells between 8-12 hours and the peak is at 24-72 hours... This is because the Helper T cells are activated, release cytokines which activate Macrophages, NK cells, CD8+ cells, granulocytes which go to the area of infection, and try to "ingest" the antigen. That explains the swelling, in a previously sensitised person, as the antigen is in contact with sensitised T cells...

SORRY FOR BORING U GUYS OUT!!!

But I just remembered, at P 6... we had to take BCG jab... and then before the jab, we took this tuberculin test...

SO I AM EXCITED!!!! hahahaha

Cuz I finally figured smth out... and that happened to me b4!

GriNZ

Psalm 31:22

In my alarm I said, "I am cut off from your sight!" Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help.

Sometimes we feel that God has left us... yet this verse has truly spoken to me, telling me God will never leave me. It seemed to "pop" out at me, telling me I don't have to be afraid... God is with me all the way

Psalm 84:3

Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young-- a place near your altar.

Reminds me of the phrase "麻雀虽小，五脏俱全" (Even though a sparrow is small, its Vital organs are still intact, there to ensure its survival) That further reinforces the fact to me that God provides for what I need. I may be small and insignificant, yet he has allowed me to be close to him

GOD IS GOOD!!!!! :)

我今天答应Sheryl会以华文来写这篇Blog... 就在这里开始了！千万别笑我！

好累好累... 从来没有任何人告诉过我做工会那么累。 尤其连续不断地工作。又不是只有这个礼拜做那么多， 为什么那么累呢？我又有什么资格投诉呢？可怜的大姐，生病时还得拼命工作。人实在太没人情味儿了。

Anyway, 今天脑子里总是播着这一首歌曲。赵薇在"情深深，雨蒙蒙" 里面的一首歌。有一句是那么说道："我想着你，不由自主。这才知道，我终於爱上你" 是不是当你总是想着一个人的时候，你就爱上那个人了呢？我非常怀疑。我相信这并不是吧。其实想一个人是有很多不同理由的不是吗？ 哈哈我疯了。简直疯了。太想家了。有没有人能够沫灭我对家里的思念？就是在这种想家的时候，自己难免会希望自己有一个男朋友，要依靠，就随时能够。一早醒来，就有这种想法。醒醒吧，梁凯婷！我真的发疯了。

哎哟！用华文来表达自己真的不容易耶！我开始对黄老师产生一种莫名其妙的...仰慕吧！我好想念黄老师。她其实真的非常像一个母亲。虽然在中学时长篇大论和她理论，但是我对她，她，还是莫名其妙地产生了一种尊敬。其实啊，我也不知自己在说什么了。

一周前的今天，我泪如雨下，正很沮丧的看着电脑上的成绩。以为自己fail了。上帝果然对我很好。他真的很疼很疼我。在我沮丧时候，他把我的泪水插掉。在我难过时候，他通过别人告诉我要信任。信任。这个看似简单，做起来却难如登天的相信。相信。这是个毫无疑问的相信。不管你得到还是得不到，你还是什么都不管地相信。我想，身为人，人，我还是做不到信任。我爱神，但是不能用劲全心来相信他。我正在积极努力的学者相信，大家请支持我！

写完了。太离谱了，写得乱七八糟，我想我去中正其实是个错误！哈哈

I honestly proclaim...

I do have lotsa things to write about my week, yet by the time I get home... they're all gone... I just seem to forget everything that happened... U know the thing that's like... "OOOOH I need to blog this...." but when I get home, I forget everything??? Ooh... but I need to show U guys my newest photo... hahaha... my newest toy that did something to my hair... My hot iron curler... nice???

Girls say it make me look OLD... I quote Sheryl: "Patty!!!! U look 10 yrs older!!!!"

Guys say it makes me look more mature... hahaha and SEXAY... :P grinZ... I dunno what the hell I'm thinking at the moment... just feel so drained...


I feel like I've been working 12 hours... got to Uni at 9... For curtin IO volunteers meeting... and then we started packing since 10- 3... and then I went straight to work... at Hollywood... started at 5... it's amazing how I need like 1 1/2 hour to get to work... and then I worked till 9... well... super tiring... had fun talking to Christie, the pharmacist tho... we talked a lot... and I learnt a lot too... She rocks!!!!

So what do U think of my hairstyle???? nice??? too old for me??? or... SEXAY??? hahaha... griNZ...

55... the last time I heard the news... it was 55...

And it is not going to stop there...

The death toll is rising... just like an exponential curve...

Somehow death just seems so... natural to me now... Afterall, it always has been natural...

Afterall, I've seen 9 deaths this week... ah well... not seen... but heard... 6 from Woods, 1 from ICU, Alberts mum, 1 from PCU... And I watched the undertakers bring the body away... he was put in a body bag... Boy... ain't I lucky???

I am not sarcastic... I think I really am lucky...

How many people get to see people inject talc into other ppl... pleurodesis or smth like that... I cried... because it was a failed operation, the doctor had to take the tube out of the patient and stitch him immediately... haha I didn't want to see... but I made myself stay... Mum had a pleurodesis too... I really pray that ah pek will survive this time... Feels that he wun leave the hospital alive... U know... he's really susceptible to infection... they have to put another tube into him now... to drain all the fluid building up in his body... long story, lazy to explain here... ah well... poor guy...

How many people get to watch undertakers remove bodies from the rooms and wheel them to mortuary??? It was scary hey... tho I didn't get to see the body... it was scary just seeing the body bag, knowing there was someone... a supposed real person in there... who just died...

But death is just so natural...

1 thing I've learnt from hospital... treasure everyone around you... U never know what tomorrow will bring... I love you guys... if I never had the chance to tell you guys that... I want to let U know... I still love you...

Don't regret... :)

It's been an upsetting day for me...

Went up to Woods Ward... and found 3 people had passed away over the week, and 3 to come... all these people passing on... has really been making me feel pretty upset... But I know that's a natural process of life, and I shouldn't really feel upset... anyway, they were suffering even more, so it's probably better that they move on...

Argh... Kaiting... don't think, don't think...

I watched Mr and Mrs Smith just now... the show was... dunno... didn't really enjoy it... but at least it had a good ending... yeah???

When I just pass by the patients, I just say a silent prayer for them. Some of them are fighting so hard to live, yet U see others throwing their lives away... I pray God will bring them home, when their time is up...

sigh... depressed... ah well

I was Mrs Smith for that night... guess who was Mr Smith??? En... hahaha

my pose looked pretty alright eh??? Just didn't have that bod and those legs... tad too much baby fat in me... :)

But... did I look like Angelina minus those lips??? hahaha...

Ah well... EN.... the pose was WRONG!!!!! :P

cold tonight... I feel like curling in bed... brrrrr

Weird how it takes another person's death to remind us how fragile and precious life is...

Just letting you guys know... Alberts' mum just passed away... She's been diagnosed with terminal cancer abt 2 yrs ago...

I know this might come as a shock to many... Because we don't know Albert well... but anyway, he's still undergoing chemotherapy at Melbourne... The first chemotherapy failed...

Reminds me of Val... I remember how we used to play around... muck around... think that we were invincible... we were so young... she's been gone for 2 yr plus already??? her death came as a shock to many, including me... all I can do now is pray... we miss u, girl...

Feeling really miserable now, at this moment... I really miss her, I really miss the times we were in Secondary school... Albert... who can understand how he feels??? Who can be there for him at this time, when he needs people by his side??? I really hope to see his smile again... Albert, be strong... That's what I really want to say, yet it's so hard to just pick up the phone and say, hey be strong... Albert, be happy... Don't let this affect you...

Facing death in the family... is really hard... really really hard... But don't let this affect you, continue to be strong, for us... For CCHSM 1K 1999, 2LY 2000, 3MD 2001 and 4MD 2002... I know he wouldn't be seeing this... but hey... Albert... be strong... God has never left you, nor will he leave you...

I've been meeting weirdos all the time... and someone just told me that he hacked into my computer system... what can I say???

I feel utterly scared right now... I dunno if he's telling the truth... so I feel pretty scared at the moment...

What can I do????

I have realised... I am a hopeless romantic...

Really hopeless...

I swoon at the sight of...



Him... yes him...

Yin Xiang Ze... the guy in the Z3... He's my dream guy man...

Anyone who hasn't watched All about Eve... probably wouldn't understand what I mean by the post...

Seriously... wouldn't U want a guy like that...



A guy who can play piano...

A guy who is the CEO of a broadcasting company... a guy who can plan for you... a guy who is older than you... a guy who leads you in everyday life... a guy who loves you for who you are, even tho U are a tad too stupid at times... a guy who's always there to wipe away your tears... a guy who gives in to you but knows when to be strict.

Who wouldn't want a guy like that??? He drives a BMW!!!! hahahaha...

But that would be too fictional isn't it??? When can that guy appear in my life???

Not possible right???

Sigh... :)

I am the world's luckiest girl...

All the blessings in the world are free!!!!

God...

Daddy... Mummy... Da jie jie... Er jie jie... Ah wei...

All my friends... the close ones, the ones that make me happy, the ones that annoy me, everyone...

Stars in the sky...

Clouds in the sky...

Brutus...

Cell members...

Zion Praise Harvest...

Chung Cheng High School (Main)...

My bed...

All the blessings in the world are free...

I am the worlds luckiest girl...

:)

Happy!

Hey Hey...

Am like really happy today... :)

Got out to a new start... woke up really early...

Church service!!!! sang one of my fave... Undignified... griNZ... It's one of my fave... cuz it's really catchy, and I love the tune... and it made me feel really undignified... I cud feel gods presence in the house... today... was exceptionally strong... When Mr Simpson talked about Xtians being like Salmon, how Jesus will come to wipe away our tears at the end of time, it felt so sweet... I shed a tear... cuz I could imagine my daddy in heaven coming in front of me, telling me... it's ok, all your sins are forgiven... and his hand just coming and wiping the tears off my face... God is good... so good to me!

Went for lunch with my new Winter Cell... headed off to a great start, Genesis was my cell leader, and we're having cell on thursday!!! hahaha... in short, 8 people went only, the rest, either were too tired, or didn't feel like going... so we went to good 1... and I talked a lot... ate a lot too... lot of rice... yummy... :) I just so love rice!!!! hahaha... then I displayed a form of stupidity again... Stupid Daniel la... he was on the topic of cars... then after 10 mins he was talking something I totally didn't understand... then I asked him... Are U guys still on the topic of cars??? And Genesis said "We were off it for ages!!!!" hahaha... and everyone laughed at me... Daniel said I should start refreshing my page... cuz I was prolly still on dial up, and the rest were on broad band... *grrrr* angry... Ok... I kept showing off my bimboness today... I think I'm becoming stupid...

May sent me to lunch... hahaha... thank you girl!!!! On the way we started singing this song... aww can't remember it anymore!!!! but it was a nice song... or else I wudn't have sung it... grinZ... hahaha

Daniel sent me home after lunch... hahaha... and I said he sounded very nasal... and I pinched his nose and I pinched mine too... and said he sounded just like that... He said he just sounded like Donald Duck... hahah... and he had a leaky pen that left 2 dots on his face... it looked like fungal growth...

Speaking of that, I realised that kachiau-ing ppl has becoming my way of life... I feel quite bad hey... cuz I always kachiau people... dunno if I piss ppl off very easily... sigh... I dunno how many ppl have I pissed off because I kachiau them too much... what do you think??? Do I piss U a lot??? hmm... I dunno... dun know... but hey kachiau-ing ppl is my nature... and if I changed that, I wudn't be me... imagine Kaiting not being happy, not cheerful, not kachiauing u... *gasp* that wud be scary right???!!!

Am I too cheerful or what???

I feel very sorry... U guys know I've been going on and on abt ppl giving 50% to choir... yet that day I cudn't wake up for choir practice!!!! I've been trying to make myself feel better by telling myself that "It's ok... It's only 1 hour... the bus ride to and fro wud have taken up 1 hour too... so don't feel too bad"... That's not good, KT... *smack* wake up... Nvm... Choir practice next week... I'll be there!

Love U guys!

Why???

Dim Gai???

An Zhua???

Why????????

Why do people all think that War of the Worlds is good... except for me?????????? I thought it was fairly BAD... to the extent I could just nod off and fall asleep in the cinema... well... maybe I have got very bad taste... but to me, the movie was just bad. Period. Not up to standard??? Given the fact that people said that the book was GOOD... So good that when people used to read it on radio...(yes, the book is THAT old) everyone thought that aliens were invading earth... So in short... The movie was disappointing... Come on... I reckon movies like this can never be as good as the books...

So I'm waiting for Bewitched, July 7th... Anyone with me??? I reckon Nicole Kidman wud be better than Tom Cruise... In many aspects... Argh... I just so don't like Tom Cruise...

Went to work today... at 8... started work at 9, and ended at 9... I learnt sooooo much!!! to the extent that I feel a sense of satisfaction... and a sense of happiness deep in the bottom of my heart... Learnt how to use the dispensing system at the back of the hospital... and that adds to my already present knowledge of how to dispense from the front... U have to check for generic names... cuz they don't use brand names at the back... it was a truly enjoyable and interesting experience... thank you God for letting me learn all these stuff... :)

Going in to work again tomorrow... really have to thank God for giving me all these chances to work, to earn money, to help people... :) grinZ... am so happy...

Oh ya! I love U guys!!!! hahaha

Cell is on Thursday... thank god... now I can go...!!! tho' I dunno how to get back...
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