I've been reading this book...

It's called One Tuesday Morning... by Karen Kingsbury...



I know it's been 4 yrs since the sept 11th issue's passed, but this story didn't fail to touch me, to make my heart hurt... truly, my heart went out to all the victims and their families of the Sept 11th bombing... So many lives were affected, so many people were hurt... I really didn't understand how people can do something like that... can harden their hearts so much to hurt so many people... The book was based on the change in the lives of 2 families... indeed, that fateful day, september 11th changed the lives of many many... including the families of those who died and their extended families...

and I thought...

What if... it was me???? What if... my dad died...??? what would I have done??? what if... that person had a tiff with his/her boyfriend in the morning... and didn't have a chance to say... "I'm sorry... but I love you..." I'm sorry... dozens of I'm sorry which should have been said, heaps of "I love you"s which should have been said were lost...

Hopes lost...

Lives lost...

One part in the book really touched me... this firefighter, His name is Jake, was helping out... and the South tower was going to collapse... and many people asked him how... how they can accept Jesus into their lives... and he led them in the Sinner's prayer... Even till his death, he was aiming to do things for God, to live for God... I wish I was like that... This part in the book struck me... the part where he highlighted his bible and said he really wanted to live like JEsus, and change everyday for Him...

I want to do that too...

I want to live like Jesus...

and live for him...

I want to change for Jesus...

I want to declare to the world...

I don't want "what ifs" in my life...

I don't want regrets...

I don't want to cry...

I want to live in victory...

I love you Jesus... deep down in my heart

Me n Sheryl at PLT camp!!! OOPs not quite looking @ camera!!!!



Us again!!!! I like this photo :)

Hehe... went to Melvin Goh's blog... and had a look at his stuff...

There's this place that he went to... it's from someone's blog, called Biblical advice for bloggers...

http://voiceinthedesert.netfirms.com/keith/archives/2005/02/biblical_advice.html

Was pretty cool hey... the points he pointed out... :) Too lazy to summarise and so just copied it off Melvin Goh's blog

7 'COMMANDMENTS' of BLOGGING
1. Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your blog, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs. (Eph 4:29)

2. Blog about others as you would have them blog about you (Lk 6:31)

3. But in your blogs set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience... (1Pet 3:15,16)

4. Each one should use whatever blog he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms (1Pet 4:10)

5. Let us therefore make every effort to blog what leads to peace and to mutual edification. (Ro 14:19)

6. Accept him whose blog is weak, without passing judgment on disputable matters...Let us stop blogging judgment on one another... whatever you believe about these things keep between yourself and God. Blessed is the man who does not condemn himself by what he approves. (Ro 14 1-22)

7. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - blog about such things. (Phil4:8)

hehehe Lovely! :)

Oh MY GODDDDDD

Exams are finally finally finally over!!!!!

Yesterday after my paper... which so painfully ended at 4:00 pm... well it wasn't all that good so let's not talk about it... I went to Gelaré with Lisa, Andrea, Sophia n Priscilla... n we just hung out... n ate ice cream n talked... then we went to Hana's bbq place... to get Korean bbq... it's all U can eat!!!!!! hahahaha... and there was like squid, mussels, prawns, assorted meat, kimchee, rice n fried stuff, n jelly n stuff... all u can eat for like 31.50 per person!!! hahaha well... I lugi-ed out... cuz I am not the kind who eats a lot...

And well... then went to pick up sister... n came home... showered, Xuande called me to congratulate me on finishing exams... n I just fell asleep after talking on the phone... I like didn't even turn off the lights! That was how tired I was... then I slept all the way till 9am... Felt like I didn't even sleep properly at all the past week... hehehe now I'm typing, I still feel tired...

Then I went SHOPPING!!!!

oooo... went to Koorong first, bought a daily devotional, a fiction story book for myself n a birthday present... hahaha quite ex hey... adding up everything... all my money I saved in the months of not eating in uni has all been spent today... grinZ!!!!

Then went to northbridge, got BBT n bought some chinese movies... haha am going to pick them up tomorrow... :P

Then we went to Garden city!!!!! I bought lotsa bling blings... hehehe :P a pair of really large hoop earrings... n a silver necklace... Silver necklace from Accessorize... and Hoop earrings from Girlfriend...

Silver Necklace was 4.95, Hoop earrings 6.99... :)



Me in the earrings n necklace... looks nice????



Me... Sorry for all the posing!!!!!

and then walked around and bought myself a bag from Victoria Stations... I've never heard of that name before... but anyway, it's really nice... I like the bag!!! Cost me $24.95...

And I feel soooooooo much more relaxed... So much better now... So really, spending money is such a good way to relieve stress... griNZ... ohhhhhhhhhhhh yaaaaaay I wish I was really rich n can spend all my money!!!!! :P

hehehe am so not satisfied...!!!

What to do??? I'm a bimbo!

I had a realyl bad paper today...

Pharmaceutics 200... when I really did heaps of study for it... and tried to memorise + understand concepts... guess what???

Lots of memory stuf came out plus I stuffed up this 12 mark question... calculations... and in calculations, when 1 step is wrong, the whole qn is just gone... gone gone gone... and I was really really upset about it... So I decided to turn off my phone... didn't wanna get contacted... had peace on my way home... so that's good...

and when I got home... I was just throwing tantrum... That's so not good... I tore up all my handwritten notes... and just threw them away... I was asking God why... like why??? I did study... I really pia-ed for this paper... but I didn't know why I couldn't do it... I cried... and then went to sleep... oh... before that I turned on my phone...

So received many smses and phone calls... Shen xian smsed me a picture of woodstock n he told me to read bible n pray... :) thanks shen xian... I was really tired tho... so I slept a lot today... and then I just wasn't happy at all la...

Then I got up... took Shen xian's advice n opened my bible...

Deuteronomy 30:4
If any of you are driven out to the farthest parts under heaven, from there the Lord your God will gather you, and from there He will bring you back...

I felt like God was telling me... no matter how troubled I am, or how far my troubles go out to, He will still bring me home... He will still sustain me...

Deuteronomy 30:9
The Lord your God will make you abound in all the work of your hand, in the fruit of your body, in the increase of your livestock, and in the produce of your land for good...

I felt he was speaking to me... telling me I just have to trust Him and he will just give it all to me...

"Sorry father Lord for me ever doubting in you. Lord father I know you love me... and I just want to ask that you sustain me... continue to keep me... and watch over me... help me to trust you more... and Lord father, I just ask that you will be there for me, especially during this period of time, where I'm really feeling down. Father, I know there is none like you... and I really want to trust you... so I want to cancel all the images that Satan puts in my mind in Jesus name! I want to claim victory from you... for me, and my friends... eg. Sheryl, shen xian, Daniel... these people who've given me hope... and given me love... when I really needed it... because we're your children! Lord father, thanks... In Jesus's name amen..."



Pig!!!



Me... just when I was bored



Us in Singapore... :P ages ago...

Maybe I ain't cut out for pharmacy afterall...

I was pretty upset abt my paper today...

Crapness I spent time studying till 4 am last night and woke up at 7 am this morning... and guess what??? Stuff that I really studied for... didn't come out.

Didn't help that the structures that I drew umpteen times just to help me remember... came up... but I simply didn't remember how to draw it...

I am soooo screwed...

and I didn't even remember what diol was... like hey... I thought I studied??? and when I drew the steroid molecule, I couldn't even draw the diol part... I was like... wtf???

Yes... kt's so smart...

I couldn't stop myself from feeling so discouraged and like sad... it's not like I didn't know how to do... I just conveniently forgot...??? Well... to be fair... I didn't know how to do one part in section A... but then calculations... I am usually quite good at it... BUT WHATever man... I couldn't do it at all... during the exams... what was wrong with me??? I was super disappointed... cuz it wasn't like I didn't study... I DID study... but I couldn't remember... how smart is that???

And after that... I just felt like crying... but I didn't know who I could cry with... That shows for the lack of friends?????!!!!! hahaha... and then later I just went out for lunch and came home and slept... at least I slept... I feel so much better now...

Thank You father Lord for giving me the chance to glorify your name... I know I've done the best I can... even tho it probably isn't good enough. Lord, I just pray for lenient examiners who will mark my paper leniently... I just pray that you will keep your hands upon me and the rest of my examinations... I commit all the papers into your mighty hands... I pray you let me see your plan in me... even if I get a supplementary or fail... I still want to trust in you... and I want to see your plans... I pray you sustain me all the way... In Jesus's name... Amen

Saviour... Hillsongs

A Saviour on a hill dying for my shame
Could this be true?
Defies the world I see
Yet this is all my heart was longing for
To know You my Lord
To know You Lord
You deserve
You deserve
You deserve all the praise
The heavens wept for You
The earth cried out "Could He be the One?"
For You so loved the world
You gave Your only Son to say
I love you so
Oh how I love You so
Hallelujah to the King
Hallelujah we will sing forever
And all humanity
Aches to find this beautiful love You give
We come to You again
To offer up our lives
To worship You alone
To worship You alone

Emmanuel... hillsongs

Holy Holy
I will bow before
My Lord and King
Hallelujah
You have come to us
You make all things new
Emmanuel
Jesus Christ
You'll never let me go
My Shepherd King
You'll never let me go
My Sheperd King
You're watching over me
Emmanuel
So amazing
You have named the stars
Of the deepest night
Still You love me
You have called my name
I will follow You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You
Holy Holy
God Almighty
There is none like You

Check out what my frenZ bought me @ www.hui-yi.blogspot.com

hehehe... Thanks Xuande... I didn't know U really meant it... I was just kidding when I said I needed more clothes... then if I say I want perfume U will buy also issit??? hahahaha

:) Thanks guys...

1. Huiyi... Thanks for going around and shopping even during ur exam perioD!!! Thanks for loving me with all your heart and dedicating your time to me... Thanks for your friendship for... 1...2...3...4...5... years... yeah... 5 years already... time flies... and thanks girl... :) It really means heaps to me... it means going to visit Ms Wong, Mr Lee etc. together... it means countless never ending nights where we just talk... it means never ending friendship...

2. Xuande... hou4 mian4 liang3 zhi1 ma3, qian2 mian4 yi4 zhi1 zhu1!!! :P hahahaha now our little piggy slim down liao... become handsome liao worhZ... :) Thanks for ur friendship all these yrs... since I was 14??? hahaha... when I was a nerdy idiot then... thanks for listening me drool over ZW... thanks for always telling me he's gay... hehehe... but thanks for your heart in friendship... thanks for always sustaining it... by calling me... by just letting me know that you care...

Aiyah... I dun wanna type already... becoming so mushy... meanwhile, check out the tops they bought me...!!!!!

It's really pretty... n v neck toO!

my style!!!

plus white n pink... my fave colour combi...

Love ya guys

:)

Verses which have been keeping me going...

"For it is the GOD who commanded light to shine out of darkness who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of GOD in the face of Jesus Christ" 2 Corinthian 4:6

"So God created man in His own image; in the image of God he created him; male and female He created them" gen 1:27

So God created us in his image... WE ARE VICTORIOUS in HIm!!!!! :) He's strong, we should be strong too... we will not be weak... cuz we are his children

"If God is for us, who is against us? He who did not spare his own son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not also freely give us all things? Romans 8:31-32

I have decided to trust God... and by trusting him... I give everything to him...

Studies, relationships...

Love you God!!!!

:)

Sunday's sermon spoke to me... so strongly that I cried...

"But Kaiting you ALWAYS cry at sermons!"

Yes... I sure do...

But this week's sermon was on God bringing you through your Red Seas in your life... When he brought the Israelites out of Egypt in Exodus... He parted the red sea to show his power... Just like the Prince of Egypt. It really spoke to me. These few weeks haven't been easy for me... with exams around the corner, it's just been study, sleep, shower, eat, relax a lil, then study again... for me... and it's just so hard for me to get used to it, because I'm naturally playful... When I sleep, I feel like I've never really slept, cuz I still feel so tired when I wake up... I feel drained... I know God's put me in Perth for a reason, for a purpose... He's brought me so far, I know he won't let me go... He won't drop me... He'll carry me in His arms like a daddy cradling his daughter... Thank you God... :)

In his message, God showed to me that He'll part my red seas for me... My parents salvation, my exams... He'll bring me through them... as long as I believed in Him... The Israelites had to believe in Him... when they saw the red sea parted, they had to take the first step and walk through it before they could get to the other side... I want breakthroughs... I told God... I want to trust in you...

These few days God has been putting verses in my life to tell me I'm not alone... He's constantly there for me... He's been giving people to me, who constantly encourage me... He's been loving me... and being so faithful, even tho I may not have... Thank you God...

Few ppl I really love and thank during this period of time... God has put them in my life... these friends of mine... :P

1. Sheryl...

Has to be you... who talk to me when I'm stressed, call me when I need someone to call me, talk to me in the wee hours of the morning when we both get bored from studying... Girl... thanks... you've been a source of strength and support to me... especially when I need it... the verses from the bible... our laughter, our slowness in the morning... our non-processed brain... :) thanks

2. Daniel...

Thanks... for calling me when I'm really discouraged... thanks for your encouragement when I need it... thanks for making me laugh and laugh when I'm really stressed and discouraged... Thanks for never failing to tell me to pray... Thanks for the red and spotted mushrooms... hahaha yeah... thanks for everything you've done for me... really appreciate you... thanks for being an older brother to me... and always being there for me... tho I hate it when U say I'm 90! or make me sound 20 yrs younger than U!!!

3. Shen Xian...

Thanks for mou mou... really cheered me up when I needed him... hehe he's just so cute... thanks shen xian... :) Your encouraging words... and for teaching me to just put things aside and just get on with stuff... Thanks...

4. Thanks to everyone who wrote me encouraging sms-es... who told me to press on... thanks to those who never gave up on me... thanks for always being there for me...

I know how to Love...

Because...

You first Loved me

We Love, because God first Loved Us...