God...

I don't understand why this is all happening

I don't understand why my mummy had to have cancer 12 years ago

I don't understand why she had to fight so hard and yet still die at the end

I don't understand how your plans work

But all I can do is trust.

God....

I feel hurt

I feel hurt that my prayers didn't work

I feel hurt that miracles didn't happen

I feel hurt that mummy didn't say the sinners prayer before she died

But all I can do is trust.

God...

Even though I feel hurt, lost and I can't understand, I know you have it all in control. I love you