Why we do what we do...





Not sharing too much...



But trusting in Faith... and believing, and praying by faith



That God is going to bring us to greater heights...



Elizabeth Jolley is not by chance...



In conjunction with Freshies welcome and Impact world tour...



It's NOT by chance... and definitely NOT by accident...



I KNOW God is going to do something GREAT in our church...



Dear... DO continue to pray and expect something GREAT to happen... NOT TO let any chance go... Everytime we get touched, and that's it... We don't follow up...



BUT guess what?



Do go all out this time...



The wave is high...



AND so are we...



****************************RELEASE***************************************



Release your hurts

Release your sorrows

Release what you're holding on

Into the hands of GOD.



Release your fears

Release your pain

Release your Relationships

For God holds your day



Hold on to His promise

For it never will fail

Cling on to His miracles

For a mighty harvest



Release yourself

And allow God to work

Let go of your problems

And HE will take the lead

I HATE BEING LIED TO...

ONCE AGAIN YOU HAVE TREATED ME LIKE AN IDIOT...

DO I REALLY REALLY GIVE YOU THE IMPRESSION THAT I AM STUPID???

JUST GO AWAY...

I HATE PEOPLE WHO LIE TO ME

U know the best part of looking back at cell group???

I had a cell leader then...

Love ya all... my cell leaders...

Daryl
Lawrence
Joel
Genesis
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And the one who made most impact in my life
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Yee mei...

Thanks guys... couldn't have done it without you...

I really miss having a cell leader

追忆快乐时光——怀念中四生活

坐在电脑前，茶已经泡好，薯片已经在手边，光驱里挑了锦秀二重唱的CD放上去——好了，我对自己说，一切就绪，可以开始了。

现在已是大学生的我，对大学的生活依然不以为然，已过了两年的时间，总觉得大学生活也不过如此而已。似乎四年光阴之后，我人生的这一篇小插曲就会不留痕迹、悄无声息地结束。像流水一样，过去了，太阳出来了，只需稍稍一晒，就什么都没有了。
　　
可是——
　　
偏偏是五年之前，那快乐的中四生活，却总是穿越一重又一重岁月纷繁的阻隔，固执地、挥之不去地、锲而不舍地、鲜明生动地，一次次唤醒我对它们的记忆。
　　
我知道不应该用“快乐”来形容中四。然而无论当时的我们暗地里咒骂过多少次老师，埋怨过多少学校的政策、日记里写进了多少对应试教育恨铁不成钢的愤恨……现在想起来，那一切都被宽宏大量地忽略掉了，能够记起来的，只有快乐。
　　
所有的苦难都终将过去，而过去了的，就会变成美好的记忆。

　　周杰伦
　　F4
　　S.H.E
　　林俊杰
　　阿杜
　　
　　 我们仿佛与流行音乐一同茁壮成长，呼吸着这些琅琅上口的音符度过中四的。每逢星期日待在收音机旁期盼自己心仪歌手的作品上旁，再兴致勃勃地致电与同学们分享喜悦，这一幕幕的情景永不停息地浮现在脑海中。那时还没有杨丞林，没有郭美美，没有绝对Superstar陈伟联，更没有飞轮海。

也忘了怎么地认识八、九十年代的经典名曲，与《明天也要做伴》系下不解之缘。或许是与歌词“明天心也要作伴，也要勇敢，不管是否天涯两端。只要是情意够长，缘就不短，常常联络，不准懒散。。。”感同身受。这首歌至今仍是我与好友，凯婷，在KTV 必点的合唱歌曲。四年前，远赴澳洲柏斯念书的凯婷，虽然人不在新加坡，但我们俩就像歌词一样“只要是情意够长，缘就不断”；同窗两年的时间似乎将我们紧紧地扣在一块儿。

处在两地的我们，并没有因为距离的差距而削减彼此的情谊。现在忙忙碌碌的大学生涯，紧接着就是踏入社会门槛，如果时光可以倒流，我会选择回到中四生活，回温中正委婉的情怀、体验中四谦班的热情。。。

还记得中四那年的六月假期，我翻着年历，扣除回学校参加活动的时间，终于数清楚它只有十五天的时间。可是每一科的老师都留下了怎么写也写不完的作业，其中绝大部分是不用什么脑子的抄写工作。那样的作业，我从来都是听着收音机完成的。《唯一》就是那时候被我爱上的，手中的钢笔不停地在本子上飞舞，王力宏的声音也不停地在屋子里飞舞。我想那个时候，一定有很多人像我一样，我们的作业是和无数的流行歌手一起完成的系统工程。

中正给予我的点点滴滴，始终无法释怀。四年的白色校服、那七粒铁钮、广阔的中正湖、湖畔掀起的涟漪、湖畔旁阵阵的琴声、四谦班、中正精神奖。。。

也许那些文字很浮泛，也许那些感情很空虚，也许随着岁月的流逝，我们也会渐渐地淡忘了它们，而一旦想起来，却又不由得摇头嘲笑自己从前的无知。

音乐、课业，不过只是一些平常、随处可见、可感受的东西，又有什么值得留在记忆之中呢？

值得留下来的，其实是那些关于青春的回忆。

This is written by me... NO I WISH... hahaha... This is written by Huiyi... and it has an embarrassing story within the 散文... I've changed it... I have... haha... Don't you just love me girl... :P

Anyway, 歌里有一段说得非常好。。。

慧怡：有事你要人商量，我最喜欢，欢迎找麻烦。。。

This is a promise... if all else fails... 不管你我在哪里，友情仍然不会断。。。

I love ya~!

Wow... what a night...

Had a 12 hour shift yesterday... then I came home... Sis phoned me to let me know Yusuke was going to pick me up... then she told me she was gonna eat left over fettucine for dinner... haha so I thought... oh yeah... let's just do that and go out for dinner on sunday...

Got home... then sister surprised me with steamboat she'd prepared... and she told me something "I knew U'd miss home... so I prepared this for you..."

So sweet of her~!!!!!!!!!

Miss home... Miss the steamboat which is made using the metal pot and charcoal... plus the fish, chicken soup etc that ah mah cooks...

Miss the Chinese programmes

Miss the count down on TV...

Miss the neighbours putting fireworks at 12am...

Miss home...

Miss ang pows... So many things I missed about home...

Oh well... good stuff happened here too...

e.g. called up friends to wish them Happy CNY

That's about it~!

18/2

Went to church... but cuz I didn't check the blogspot for worship... I DIN KNOW I WAS ON WORSHIP~!!!!! n da jie jie had to rush me down to curtin... Got there only at 8:45... gosh... I was soooooo late~!!!!!!!! haha... and practised... Can say I really had fun today... at worship... really felt so free... and happy~!!!!!!

The Freedom we know
One way
At the cross
Mighty to save

No idea why I typed the names of the songs... just felt like...

Zion's 10th birthday was today... so we had to sing happy birthday too~!!!! haha it was fun... and guess what????

WE gonna have a ball~!!!! woowwwwwww my first ball I think... on 8th september... hahaha... oh well... Usha and I were saying... we reckon we not gonna get ball dates at all... sigh... I wonder if I will have one...?~!!!!!! haha... oh well just being random...

Love ya all~!!!!!

Song called Say Goodbye by S Club 7...

Lyrics mean a lot to me...


SAY GOODBYE

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared

In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'CAUSE true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'CAUSE true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies


I agree to these lyrics... they are so true... Sometimes it's the only way... maybe we might not be contacting each other at all... for 1 yr, 2 yrs, 3 yrs... But U know what? when you need my arms to run into, I'll comfort you... :) Love ya, friends...

I had a good day

and even better afternoon

and an awesome night

Productive... spent time with people I wanted to spend time with...

Thanks for sending me back... really feel

1) thankful
2) grateful
3) blessed

Thanks for blessing me so much... :) Everytime I feel upset, I know you don't know it. But you always help cheer me up just by arguing with me... Rather, bickering...

Haha... I know I'm not exactly the best friend on earth... BUT I just want to say thanks... and whenever you've set your heart to something, believe in it, believe in yourself... and your rainbow will come smiling through...

Go for it... all the best...

Face your worries (I know U already are) and ace your problems... :)

Jia you

Let's see if you can get through it.
if not,you're too scared

Would you kiss the last person you
kissed again?
- Depends. Kissed daddy n mummy... I'd definitely kiss them again... Kissed brutus... definitely kiss him again... Kissed ex... definitely not.

How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have
told you they love you?
- 2...

Have you ever thought that you were
going to marry a person?
- Never those that I went out with

Are you crushing on someone?
- Yes. I'd kill you if I tell you

Have you ever liked someone so much
that it hurt?
- Yes... hurt so much I can't cry

Have you ever made a boyfriend or
girlfriend cry?
- Yes

Are you happier single or in a
relationship?
- Neither... I like being single... definitely has its benefits... but I love the companionship at times...

Have you ever told someone you loved
them and didn't mean it?
- Yes... Bf no. 1... I know I'm mean...

Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Definitely... haha... U know that feeling sucks... it's like... hurting yet U can do nuts.

Have you ever broken someone's heart??
- Yes... and vice versa...

talk to any of ur exs?
- Yes... still do contact...

If you could go back in time and change
things, would you?
- No I wouldn't... But I'd change some stuff I did during my r/s...

Think any of your exes feel the same?
- Definitely

Do you believe that you are a good
boyfriend or girlfriend?
- No... Never was... have to learn tho...

Have you dated people who were not good
to you?
- No they were awesome to me...

Have you been in an abusive
relationship?
- Never...

Have you dated someone older than you?
- Yeah... both of them are...

Younger?
- Never

Do you believe in second chances?
- No...

Do you believe in love at first sight?
- No... lust at first sight yes...

Ever been given an engagement ring?
- Never...

Do you want to get married?
- Definitely...

Has anyone ever told you they wanted to
marry you?
- Yes... but it was all a lie...

Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or
girlfriend?
- Yes... haha... :P

Does heartbreak really feel as bad as
it sounds?
- Yes... you feel like your heart is breaking in half yet U can't do anything... there is a physical hurt which goes all the way to your throat...

Saw this on Huiyi's blog... just felt like doing it... :P

Layer ONE
On the Outside
Name: Kaiting
Birth Date: 18/06/1986
Current Status: Single, unattached, don't intend to get attached...
Eye Color: black/brown
Hair Color: Dark brown and gold highlights
Righty or Lefty: Righty

Layer TWO
On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinese... Proud to be one...(Just like Huiyi) proud of my chinese name too~! do, if you can try to pronounce it properly...
Your Fears: Rejection...
Your Weaknesses: So many... too many...
Your Perfect Pizza: Hard question... hehe

Layer THREE
Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: I try to thank God... but usually I check my phone... which is bad... so I always thank God in the shower...
Your Bedtime: usually 12-1am ..
Your most missed memory: chung cheng high main days!!! Definitely, I agree with you Huiyi

Layer FOUR
Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald’s or Burger King:BK
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Lipton tea or Nestea: Dun like ang moh teh
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate... definitely
Cappuccino or coffee: haha... Cappucino...Iced Java Chip Frappe from Starbucks is awesome too...

Layer FIVE
Do you
Smoke: NOPE
Curse: NO... haha The worst I say is OH CRAP~! or oh shit... I guess that's one...

Layer SIX
In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Nope
Gone to the mall: Yes
Been on stage: Nope
Eaten sushi: YESSSSS
Dyed your hair: Yessss

Layer SEVEN
Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Nope...
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes... trust me I found myself in identity crisis heaps of times

Layer EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married: 24... but I dun think that will happen cuz I dun think I'm ready

Layer NINE
In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: Black... Chinese pls... Mandarin speaking... YES PLS MANDARIN SPEAKING...
Best hair colour: Black/brown... guess I can't be too selfish since I have brown hair
Short or long hair: SHORT... Long hair is so fashion passe

Layer TEN
What Were You Doing
1 minute ago: Chatting with Lisa...
1 hour ago: In car... Lawrence sendin me home from Combined cell
4.5 hours ago: Combined cell
1 month ago: In Singapore... dun wanna come back
1 year ago: Chinese New Year?

Layer ELEVEN
Finish the sentence
I love: God, my family, my friends.
I feel: encouraged, really empowered. I want to grow as a cell leader
I hate: confrontations
I hide: Who I truly am when I am in a big group...
I miss: chung cheng high main days
I need: to be serious with ministry and job search

Layer TWELVE
Tag 5 people: lazyyyyyy

Awesome~! went for combined cell... it was great great great... really awesome... Can see myself doing great things for cell, more passion this sem than last~! hope it never dies... Keep the burning fire within me, I pray oh LOrd that you will continue to grow me~!... :) Lord I ask that I will bring my cell to greater heights, help us all to become a close knit family and to love each other like we never will... Lord I commit all of us into YOUR mighty great hands... In Jesus's name, amen

Keep the fire burning~!

There was a time when people said that Singapore couldn't make it...
But we did...
There was a time when troubles seemed too much for us to take...
But we did...

We built a nation, strong and free
Reaching out together
For peace and harmony...

This is my country
This is my flag
This is my future
This is my life
This is my family
These are my friends
We are Singapore, Singaporeans...

*song goes on*

Had a great time singing songs like this on the way home with Lynn and Marcus... I really enjoyed it... Miss Singapore a lot...

How ironic. At cell leaders meeting, the topic of Singapore came up...

And I started singing "Stand up for SIngapore"

Lawrence with an exasperated voice : PLEASE U AREN'T EVEN SINGAPOREAN...

Haha~! Which is true, I'm not Singaporean... Call me a Singaporean wanna-be if you want...

BUT I'm not afraid to admit... There is where I truly feel I belong...

Remember the times where you were searching, searching a place to belong, a place where you could grow up?

Singapore gave me the answer. It is where I spent most of my childhood, spent most of my teenage years. It is where I learnt how to fall, and stand up again... It is where I broke down massive numbers of times, because I couldn't take staying in Singapore... It is where I had friends who stood by my side when my auntie accused me of stealing her money... It is where I tried to slit my wrist and cut it a little... when I told huiyi with teary eyes, there was where she accompanied me, went with me to the toilet and listened to me cry...

Singapore is where I grew up... and where I matured...

Where I went to school, be it SiLing or Chung Cheng...

Where I made steadfast friendships...

Where I learnt how to depend on others...

Where I learnt about true friendships...

Call me a Singaporean wanna-be, I don't care...

Call me a Singaporean... I don't care...

Because that is where I belong... or rather, where my heart belongs...

Deep in my heart I will know
Right from the start we will grow
Look where we are
We've come so far
And there's still a long long way to go
With all of my heart I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends
Together we stand
And in the end, hand in hand
We will get there...

Am typing this late when I have to wake up at 7. Call me crazy... But I simply had to let this out of my heart...

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you spend as little as possible. You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others. The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

Who's The True You?

Is this really me? What do you think..? :)

Oooooo this is sooooo cute la.... hahaha it shows that I look like an ang moh lang :)

Have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right
Have you ever
Have you ever...

Am watching "My Girl"... yet again... A show which I watched once, laughed at the jokes, and can still watch and laugh at the same jokes, simply cuz it's too funny... and amazingly, I'm starting to love the drama...

BUT being Leong Kai Ting, I still skip the heart-breaking parts, parts that make my eyes cloud with tears... 因为泪腺发达，所以自己不论看什么都会哭。。。

哭了就会把自己想象成戏里的女主角。。。 想象着爱人与被爱。

你可曾为了自己心爱的人哭？

看到戏里的女主角为了男主角哭，我就想。。。 “hmm 我可曾为了什么男人哭过吗？”

好像没有。。。除了以前的男朋友以外。。。and that happened when we were having argument... Probably tears of anger as well...

有让我难过到很想哭的。。。那些我暗恋好久好久的男人。。。

It's like... there's this part where the girl was crying because she felt very heartbroken due to the guy she liked... (Who at that time was meant to be her cousin)... and this guy who really liked her was listening to her rant and rave... and she was drunk at that time... And that guy had tears in his eyes...

How can people love other ppl so much it make them cry? I'd love to try that... to really know that I'm able to love somebody so much that it made me cry...

Contact lens were dirty... wore them... and eyes got infected... So had to use Chloramphenicol eye drops... and I couldn't wear contact lenses~!!! For 5 days... haha think I'll wear them back tomorrow... first time something like that happened, I'm a lil scared... seriously... u know I woke up every morning... when the infection was worse... and I thought to myself "can I still see today?" and I always feel better when I can see clearly with my contact lenses...

Praise God the infection's gone... :)

This is quite fun hey... Like girls out loud... I'm quite amazed that guys in Singapore have no proposal plans tho... hello~!!!! Girls are... well girls... We are romantic people... Not people whom you ask "wanna buy a HDB flat with me" to propose~!!!!!

Hope guys who read this learn something huh...

BUT... NO proposals on National TV for me plssss

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO ALLEN AND STEVEN, THE TAIWANESE TWINS~!!!!!!!

HAPPY BELATED ____ BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED DA JIE JIE~!!!!!!!!! And that means BIG SISTER

Time for that married woman to have little piglets~!!!!! haha...

Love you guys~!

31/1/2007

I decided to step out and face my one very big fear right now...

Apart from the 1,000,000 other fears I have... My fear of...

*gasp*

DRIVING...

Just cuz I stay so out of the way and I find it really embarrassing to get people to come and pick me up all the time... So I went to the licensing centre to convert my license... And since you know that Malaysian License is not recognised in Australia, I have to do it all over again...

So I went to do the theory test...

Which was quite good I scored 30/30... haha which makes it full marks which I haven't scored in n years... well maybe since primary school...

And now, time to step out into the world to face my fear... gonna drive around and get my Drivers license... Yaaaaayyyy no more using my passport to go clubbing *oops* haha not like I go clubbing anyway, but in a way I had this huge burden put down when I stepped out of the licensing centre...

I have decided to face my fear...

Please wish me luck with it...

Muacks

ps... Xuande next time I'll be able to drive you around

Back: Huiyi, Huiwen
Front: Francis, Me, Xuande

Thank you so much for taking that time aside to meet me... :) Really had fun... Friendships never die. You guys certainly have shown that and proven that point to me. I love you heaps... Thank you


Me and Huiwen... Isn't she just the sweetest looking face you've ever seen?
Me to Huiyi: This photo look like porn star meh? haha



Huiyi, Me and Huiwen... I promise I'm gonna lose all that weight at my tummy by the end of this semester, I Promise!~!!!!


Friendships never die... Xuande, Me, Huiwen, Huiyi... I love all of you... :) muacks...

Kitty

Though it's not your birthday, you definitely deserve a shoutout. Thank you for always being there. Thank you for caring all the time. Thanks for understanding. Thanks for letting me rant. Thanks for hating the people I hate and loving those I love. Thank you for your bubbliness and cheerfulness. Thanks for always being that big sister to me. I love you so much. Our plans to eventually study in the same country never worked out huh? =p I can't believe you're graduating this year and you'll be a professional stepping out into the working world and I'll be still struggling in university. We've come a veryyyy long way. From kids watching sleeping beauty and playing with barbies and cupcake dolls, we've grown to girls (women? o.O) that talk about serious issues and plan our future. I love you very very much for being that awesome person you are and for loving me so much I never have to feel inferior around you. You're truly one amazing woman and I mean it. If I could turn back time I'd definitely go back to those days when I could see you every weekend. You're beautiful inside and out!!!!! I'm gonna miss you loads. <3333>

Now you see why I love this girl to bits? hehe...

That's because...

She loves me...

haha...

Which is why... She is a doll to me...

Adeline

My smart-yet-can-be-bimbotic-at-times cousin... I love you... love you, love you, love you to bits. You're the only person who can understand the times I get frustrated with my family, the one who is truly smart but yet can be dumb at times. So many times I feel like I can relate to you... because... I know I am smart... but yet dumb at times. Not dumb dumb, but innocent. I'm so thankful you listen to me rant and rave... and just sit there listening to me. I'm so thankful to God for blessing me with this little sister. Someone whom I can talk to, and share with. Someone in the family whom I can speak to, and openly share my faith in Him with. Someone who has been there to listen to me when I cry, who's always so gentle... and somehow able to speak sense to me when I am clinging on to relationships which are obviously going no where. Someone who is my younger sister, yet is like my older sister at times. Our times of dressing up as Liang po po and acting days have long gone. Our polka dot dresses have been given away, together with our barbie dolls and polly pockets. In place are jeans, make up, denim skirts and not forgetting shoes. Yes, if I could turn back time, I'd turn it back to when I could see you every weekend. I love you to bits... just plainly because you are you.

Ever imagined yourself as doing something different to what you are studying right now?

For me, I don't think I'll ever imagine myself as a pharmacist forever.

Neither do I think that I'll stay in Perth forever. I do, however, will consider Melbourne or even the United Kingdom. Afterall, the world's not limited to Perth. Neither is it limited to Singapore, or Malaysia.

Have thought it through. Am not going to yearn to be married... Neither will I think nor consider any BGR relationship at this moment. It is time to plan for MY own future before thinking about other stuff that comes along the way. Of course there will be times I yearn to be hugged, to be treated like a princess by a guy. Afterall, I'm just a plain, normal girl. BUT those times will past. It is temporary. Plan out my future before thinking about other stuff along the way.

Sounds selfish? But yes... To those guys/ people who are not worth it out there... haha... You'll never be more important...

Choices I came up with

1) Pharmacist. I mean... duh... why spend 4 years in UNI if this job will not even be in my consideration list. But then again, don't get me wrong. I love Pharmacy. I don't think I'd ever survive in society studying something else. It's just... there are just so many more things I'd like to do and I don't think Leong Kai Ting would have her aspirations fulfilled if she was stuck in a pharmacy for 30yrs down the road. Life has to go on, and it'll never wait for me.

2) Teacher. For reasons so. Secondary school days have been really well moulded and shaped by my teachers. Of course, if I could choose, I'd teach in Singapore. Again, if I could choose, I'd teach in Secondary school. And lastly, if I could choose, I'd teach in Chung Cheng. Reasons are very obvious. and you can see I'm certainly emotionally attached to my secondary school. Downside? "Miss LEONG"... Gosh... this really yucky teacher called Miss Leong taught at my school before. Apparently she taught geography. And... She had really long kar mor... which she'd pluck in class... haha so... anyway, as Huiyi was saying... Miss Leong teaches on "Coniferous trees" all the time. She would also ask the students to comment on pictures of mud that she took. Gosh I don't think she'd be very welcome into Australia.

I'd always dreamed that, if I were a teacher, I'd be the kind of teacher who would build very good rapport with my students. I'd be the kind of teacher whom all of them loved, would chat to on MSN. I'd always dreamed that my students will love me, not just because of the way I teach, but just my personality. Love me as a friend.

I grew up to realise that this is just part of my imagination. U know how little girls imagine they are princesses in big castles, with princes to rescue them and kiss them to wake them up from their deep slumber? Yes. I think my imagination is comparable to this. and I think it's very obvious why.

a) Parents are growing so so so concerned for their kids I'm worried and even wonder if their kids have chance to breathe. Kids are just growing up so spoilt and demanding... I'd prob have the urge to slap them rather than show them concern.

b) Get close to a male kid (And I mean just emotionally, not physically) and U know what guys will think. And you'd probably be sued for incest. Not elaborating much on this. You understand.

3) Singapore girl. AKA Air hostess... for SIA... haha Huiyi says I can make it. I never thought I could. Mum supports my decision; she said I can after I get my pharmacist registration. I'd say being an air hostess would be every girl's dream. When I was little, I'd say a singer or an actor. I loved the limelight. I loved being the centre of attraction. BUT after I grew up, I'd say... that's not my cup of tea. I'd love to be an air hostess... and visit places I'll never get the chance to visit. Would someone like me... Someone as chor lor as me... someone who's so plain that the world would never take notice be able to qualify as an air hostess?

Well let's see where God takes me to. I might be just plain Kaiting to the world.

But in His eyes, I know I am extraordinary Kaiting. Someone whom He loves.

Issac sent me a website... from Kenny Sia...

http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2005/11/zhng_my_face.php

Look at Dawn Yang's before and after photos~! I was pretty shocked myself when I saw it, cuz I always thought she'd been so pretty... Lack of common knowlege if U ask me... In Singaporean terms...

Suaku lo...

Funny how my mum and dad have (in my own words) brought my cousins "out of suaku-ism" that is... introducing them to places out of their own home town... but their daughter is still so suaku...

Anyway, back to the topic...

I have decided I want to go for plastic surgery when I have the chance... Hmm... it might be a rash decision now, and I might just be talking about it for the time being... who knows...

Definitely the nose... definitely...

I want to get a nose job... Make it higher and sharper...

Tons of actresses have undergone the knife for a nose job... haha... And the outcome???? *whistle* pretty noses...

As for me, myself... I dun think I was born ugly... Comparison to Patricia Mok, or... I dunno... I think I'm relatively prettier... Shorter, yes. Not so nice a body, yes. Darker, yes... But prettier features? I think so... But would plastic surgery really make me better???

Considering a nose job...

But as I told Chin Seng, my nose will prob fall off... cuz I suffer from very bad allergy problems... and I rub my nose a lot... so if I went plastic it'd probably end up with my nose falling off and U prob see just two gaping holes on my face...

In addition to that probably a chin job (get rid of my double chin) and maybe slimming plus liposuction... oh... and also to make my face zit free and smooth... plus whitening????

hmm... So many things I'd like to do...

BUT If U'd just excuse me

I'm just having a blonde moment...