Being in cell has taught me so many things...

Become more mature? I sure hope so...

Learnt that... friends are those who truly tell U the truth... and still love you even tho U aren't perfect...

I realised I need to know that and practice that better... because although I dun think what a person does is right I rarely tell that person... To prevent spoiling a friendship. Have to learn... to speak the truth in love...

Learnt that... I should open my heart and accept everyone tho not everyone's easy to accept...

Learnt that... I am not perfect... even more so... inadequate...

But still I love my cell group... :) Cuz it's in them I learn how to become more perfect....

LOVE U GUYS

Headache...

I dunno why I'm so tired even tho I've slept so much recently... Still tired...

Feeling so detached... from everything... dunno why too...

Seems like everyone's having such a fun holiday... really thank God my cell leader understands what I'm going thru... Like really thank God my cell leader's a pharmacy student too (and not the genious kind who looks at the lecture notes once and remembers everything)... and she understands... I really thank God for such an understanding cell leader... really love her to bits... One day I was like super tired and stuff... and really scared... and I sent her an mms... (remember I've got free mms?) and what I got back... was really really encouraging...

THANK U YEE MEI I LOVE U HEAPSSSSS

Hmmm... and now what??? Inez, David, Kian Huat, Yee Hui, Wansee and Vely are coming over to my place for dinner tonight... am making a trifle for them... hope it tastes oK hey... I'm never really good at cooking... Had a catch up session with my discipler yesterday... and just talked about family and stuff... really learnt a lot from her...

THANK U KAREN I LOVE U HEAPPSSSSSSSS TOO.... :)

Gosh I'm like soooo tired now la.... Oh well I know God will provide and He WILL sustain...

Love ya too God...!!!!!

I need lip balm now... my lips are sooooo dry...

I was playing this thing called myheritage.com... it tells U which celebrity U look like... Played with a few photos and this person came up a lot... her name's Rachel Bilson... hehehe... dun even know who she is... realised I dun really look chinese... must be the philipino maid thing... but anyway ppl say I look a mix bet my eldest sis and second sis...

am reading this book called even greater 12 real-life stories that inspire you to do great things for god... by Reinhard Bonnke... really really good book hey... even the introduction catches me, and I don't... I REPEAT DON'T normally read introductions. Let me show U one paragraph.

"The truth is that while you and I may be human beings, as children of God we are much more than that. We are agents of omnipotence. This means that unlimited power is at our fingertips. It also means that there are no great men working in God's kingdom. Rather, there is a great God at work in human beings who have childlike faith. You have not yet seen what God wants to do through you."

how powerful... how great... agents of omnipotence... really the only thing I can say is... "wow"

These few days, I've been praying that God give me the urgency and help me want to go out to spread the gospel to ppl around me...

I realised I've always had the heart for ppl... Like helping ppl, encouraging ppl etc... Just that I'm like as blur as can be... always kena bluffed by ppl... hahaha... but anyway I really really love ppl in general...

So what happened was the thursday before easter performance, we were like singing the songs... and then I just could feel God putting Salvation in our presence... in Church... everywhere... I just cried... while I was singing... and Usha was like "Kaiting, why U cry???" and I couldn't answer... That feeling couldn't be put into words...

Then on Easter itself, I was soooo touched to see so many ppl... even the UWA service was packed... which was great. We had few salvations, few rededications... and I was just praying for these ppl... WEnt down during altar call to pray and I just cried while praying... Never ever felt such a burden waiting to be released... Really felt the happiness when I was praying... and just cried and cried...

Then went for Easter camp... hehehe it was awesome hey... Geoff Woodward, the 1st night... I can't really say I understood him... actually I didn't understand him at all... hehehe but it was good seeing ppl just respond... then the next day, Pastor Karmeng talked about Reinhard Bonkke... and I just cried whenI saw the video on Reinhard Bonkke with those ppl... how many ppl came to christ... Save 1 more for Jesus... right now that's really my goal... like 5 ppl first... I'm sure I can do it... anyway, then Ps Chong and Goldie talked about BGR... and I made a commitment to God, I'll let HIM lead my relationships from now onward... so even if I meet a guy who fulfils my list, God will lead... I really dunno how to... but all I can do is pray. Not going to fall for silly little gestures, I want to stand for God... Then at night Bro Sudha Niles preached. He talked about how God still loves U even when U think He doesn't. It didn't really speak that much to me... But it spoke million words to ppl.... Lots of ppl responded, cried... went to the front and just knelt down in front of God... saying "GOD I live for you, give my burdens and sorrows to you" and I just cried again while praying for this girl... cuz she cried while I was praying... and I just cried... and cried... really touched by all these ppl... Then that night was this silly talk show la... and then Marcus was like chairing it... then guess what??? Gen was the co-chair alongside marcus and alphonsus... and he saboed me... man... super sabo lo... just as much as how I saboed shen xian to go out... and anyway Gen was like " Kaiting is one of the most eligible girls in ZPH" and like something along that lines la... and like they asked me what was my shopping list for guys... and they paired me up with Zhengyi... GOSH!~!!!!!! Zhengyi!!!! That was like super ages ago la... maybe I used to have this teeny crush on him... but that is like eons ago... hahaha super funny man these ppl... Anyway... yeP...

The next day was testimony sharing day... and then I just went up la... I realised I'm so much more confident sharing stuff(s) in front of many ppl nowadays... Thank God for bringing this fear of ppl away from me... I really didn't use to make very good eye-contact, stammer a lil n stuff... but not that day... It was God it really wasn't me... anyway, I just thanked my group members for supporting me la... I wasn't very good at bringing excitement to the group... So much so that I almost cried one day... and then later Lawrence asked "are U very discouraged?" and I was like "yes" but then it's all GOOD... hehehe cuz I've learnt really that being a leader is not easy stuff(s)... Thanks million to Lawrence, Celia, Reena, Julie, Risako, these few who have stuck by me and helped me along all the time... esp. Risako, this girl who's only 16... she's from Japan... and she told me "I think U're a very good leader" that really helped a lot... She's like so sweet... And like Celia and Lawrence... they go "Don't worry U're doing fine" gosh... I feel so loved and so touched by these wonderful bunch of ppl... I love U guys... :P

Anyway... sorry I've been MIA for ages... haven't had the chance to blog... anyway, I love U guys still all the same, or even more... :) cuz U guys are wonderful to me... I hope U realise!!!!

Love love love ya heaps!!!

Had this talk with Sheryl... and I realised I dun have many good friends... that's quite sad...

Sometimes we think we know a person quite well... but when I need to... will they be there for me???

Listing the ppl in Aus I'd call and bug and ask them out if I wanted...
1) Sheryl
2) Sophia

That's all... will there even be ppl there for me if I need???? hehehe sounds sad...

On a lighter note, sis e-mailed me!!!! I bet she misses me...

Hehe I miss U too er jie jie

Just back in uni from a fun day out... gosh didn't know that 4 hour breaks in-between classes can be so fun... First went out with Chin Seng and Sheryl for dim sum... yes yes I know I had dim sum on thursday... but it's ok... I still like it... I was like totally craving it... oh gosh now I'm craving mei xin's fried milk... it's actually milk that they put gelatine... and stuff... and then fry... it's like... yummy!!!!!!! hehehehehe me and da jie jie we always get that... when we go to mei xin... cuz I'm such a glutton...

This morning I woke up with a jolt cuz I woke up at 7:50 instead of my usual 7:30... AND class was at 9... then I realised it was Colin Marshall's class so I was like "OMG!!!!" how how... cuz he's pretty strict... then I was taking a quick shower and my mind went "hang on... class is at 10!!!!" praise God that I didn't sleep too much past my alarm... these few days I've been really tired... last night I messaged Sheryl... told her I was bored... and then I zonked out even without waiting for her reply... that's how tired I was... feels like I haven't slept in ages... cuz with work and stuff... but I wudn't give that up for nothing...! :P That's my only source of income now... and I'm happy...

Then later... went for lunch with Chin Seng and Sheryl la... thanks guys... :)

Then shopping... was great just hanging out with Sheryl... and like complaining abt stuff like (I'm so fat)... and (my boobs r so small) and yeahhhh Sheryl told me "I heard your vibrating thing is really good right???" hey that makes me sound like I use a vibrator!!!! hahahahhaa.... NO WAY!!!! I got this Slimming belt thing from home... brought it over... zap zap zap... gonna zap off all my fat!!!! hehhehee... that's the only thing that motivates me... not putting on too much weight in winter and being able to squeeze into a pair of size 6 or 7 pants... god I pray for that amen!!! hehehehe... yes... I've shrunk from size 10 to 8... and way to go... :P yep! will lose 10 kg!!!! yaaaaay hehehehe

OK la... just being stupid... and still stupid... hehehe will update whenever I have the chance... take care

记忆像游乐园般精彩
我们像对恋人相爱
幸福是应该不会是当然
只怪我们都太贪玩

思念像云朵班柔软
而你轻轻躺在我胸怀
我像是人性走失的小孩
静静抱着孤单

我们都曾经明白
也都曾经遗憾
错过了爱
就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白
怕容易被你宠坏
望了该与不该

到哪里找回真爱
找回所有遗憾
爱得真相就能够揭开
多给我一些片段
拼奏未知的意外
失去记忆最初的爱

我是被你遗忘的精采
你却带着记忆离开
心跳是我们唯一的呼唤
提醒我们曾经相爱

你的笑像阳光班灿烂
小心翼翼藏在我口袋
在我脆弱时给了我温暖
谁也无法取代

(chorus)

Gosh... I really really really love this song... it's from 王子变青蛙 ... For ppl who know me... U know how much I love this show now... and it's by club 183 and 7 flowers... hehe I know the ppl acting it sounds dodgy... but it's really not as bad as it sounds... cuz it's really sweet n stuff... like U guys know I cry like nobody's business when I watch series... that's why I really like watching them alone... so like this show right... I was like watching it into the wee hours of the morning... and guess what...??? was crying my way through... hehehe... although it was meant to be funny... :P hmm I wonder why...

anyway... this show is quite silly... about losing their memory n stuff.... but relaly nice la... hehehe at Sheryl's house blogging now...

"她曾说过在單均昊的心里住着一个比王子还要王子的茼蒿"

好甜蜜

哈哈我也希望会有这样的事情发生在我身上

I know I haven't been blogging as frequently as I'd like to... but I DO have a reason for it... hahha I haven't got internet access right now... so I'm gonna connect broadband soon... thinking of going with westnet but I'm thinking abt it la...

Have been pretty busy from the time I came back... Passion booth... then River cruise... then Freshies welcome and etc etc... One highlight of the week was GRADUATION!!!!! Believe it or not... 10+ ~ 20 ZION people graduated on Tuesday night itself... and of course my smart sis is one of them... who graduated from Postgraduate Diploma in Pharmacy... Gosh... she's way smart... But anyway, that's beside the point... hahaha check out this pic that I took with Chin Seng at His graduation... gosh I feel like a midget standing beside him... hehehhee he's like soooo big and tall!!!! I think he's still available (if I'm not wrong) hehehe btw... all courtesy of CS's blog...



Freshies welcome was gooooodddddd.... heheheh after that... went to Sean(cell visitor)'s house for dinner... His mum cooked for us... she's like such a good cook!!!! oh by the way, she like came for a holiday for about a week... and me, may, ailin, canille, jimmy, joanne, usha etc went there for dinner... it was ALL GOODzzzzz.... :) check out a photo that we tooK!!!!! Thanks Sean!!! Thanks Uncle for opening up your house to us!!!

"By the time the Lord made woman, he was into His sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and be able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -- and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish. "But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days. "The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think? " asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate." The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." "That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the angel asked. The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can help to heal a broken heart. Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning! They bring joy and hope. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.However if there's one flaw in women, it is that they tend to forget their worth. That's why their friends send this to remind them that they are, indeed, priceless"

from Adeline's blog

You guys are priceless... not just to me, also to God...

Huggies girl... that was really great... :)

Somehow... things change

when U grow older your perspective of things change...

Huiyi was talking to me about how she'd be helping me plan my wedding... and helping it take effect... thanks girl I want a white wedding at a church and I want lilies in my bouquet, I'll be throwing it :P

I was so sure I'd be settling down in perth... with my new family there... and getting married at 24 was what I really wanted...

Yet now I'm not so sure anymore...

曾經那麼堅決﹐想留在柏斯發展的我﹐現在似乎長大了。已不是當年的小女生。已經不會一枚地只顧慮到自己。畢竟﹐人是會長大。

Home is where the heart is...

這句話說得很對﹐很實際。有時會不經問自己﹐ PERTH 到底有多麼適合我嗎﹖我想﹐ 並沒有。畢竟心不屬於那裡。我想﹐叫我放棄自己的家園居住在一個根本就不屬於我的國家﹐ 我辦不到。

Somehow... I've grown older... and grown up...

Growing older is not a process you can stop. But growing up is something you can control... 快要二十歲的我﹐發現自己似乎長大了。思想方面也成熟了。

When I was young, I thought of dolls... Now that I'm older... I worry bout boys.. and in the future, I'll worry about wrinkles... This thought just struck me... I saw something similar to this sentence... I read in a book... and this is sooooooo true... When I was younger this didn't make much sense... but now I look back at it...

Adeline and I

Gosh we're talking about marriage when it used to be polly pocket and cupcake dolls

Huiyi and I

Planning marriage... talking about stuff like this as opposed to Jerry Yan (don't tell me U dun remember)

Mr Lee and me and Huiyi

Workforce... Prospects of jobs... Girlfriend... Marriage... Family... as opposed to Miss Compre and Miss compo

Things we'd never have thought about when we were younger...

Time flies... and I find myself trapped in a time bomb... which will never turn back...

and the sentence "If only I could turn back time" really depicts the feelings of many

If only...

Ifs...

Live life to your fullest and don't bother about Ifs

看著孩子們天真無邪的笑容﹐你是否很想回到過去﹖

Lamenting... Don't mind me...

I realised I'd feel really bad if my friend really broke up with his gf... cuz I told him to if he thinks the r/s wudn't work out... plus they gonna be long distance and he told me he dun think it'd work out... but still if they really do break up any time soon I think I'd feel really bad...

It's 2:29 am and I really ought to be in bed by now, judging from the fact that I'm yawning heaps and that I'll have to wake up at 7 tomorrow... BUT

Can't seem to get to sleep... prolly cuz I'm going back to Australia in 5 days... Was just lying in bed and thinking of it... and the thought is quite scary...

Imagine... Friday night I'll still be in bed. In Malaysia...

Saturday night I'll be back in Australia...

Somehow this holiday seems so short... so short...

I hate growing up... growing up loses all the privileges U used to have when U were a kid...

"sa jiao-ing" isn't cute anymore
You have to work. work. work. and somehow your holiday jsut flies without being able to spend time with your family...

I hate Australia all of a sudden... Wish I never had to go back...

Don't want

Don't like

The long awaited holiday is going to be over soon... have spent 6 weeks in Malaysia... and that's it...

Gosh I just came back from KL... and I realise how much I'm gonna miss my dear little piggy... hahaha... Once I used to think that best friends don't exist... but now I realise... I have 1... :P and that's her la... I guess I can totally trust her cuz I know she wun backstab me... hahaha... yeah man... and I totally miss her morning "cowie" (s) yes man... she totally's annoying... keeps calling me cowie mooie... Quote from Adeline : WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM MAN!!!! hehehe and I'm totally gonna miss waking up in the morning and seeing your face... I miss u!!!! *sob sob* now I'm going to cry... hahahhaa no no won't waste my tears on U

Anyway... been having someone to accompany me to the dentist... man who's gonna tell me to "chill" next time when I go to the dentist??? and who is gonna accompany me to walk at the shops outside and get contact lens solution next time????!!! hehehe U better go to Curtin if U don go to NUS ya... sigh... am gonna miss U heapssss...

I realised I've got a friend... tho she insists I'm not her best friend I'm her cow but that's not the point... hahaha... someone whom I can stay apart from for 1 yr... yet when I come back, we have more things to talk about then ever... and we realise we've grown up... we're talking about marriage... about proposal... about ideal valentines... about surprises... a huge jump from barbie, polly pocket and cup cake dolls...

anyway stayed at Pan Pacific Pacific floor yesterday with Adz... and then we went to the Pacific Lounge for dinner... it was a buffet sort of thing... and we finished up all the tartlets!!! crazy... I had 6, and she had 7... I reckon we both finished the whole plate... then we escaped to the Mall... bought some A4 paper... and ball point pens... then later we went to check out phones... we were in a giggly mode and were like laughing at everything the sales person said... and there were really rude ones... and we were talking about complaining about him to customer service... and the guy at the other desk (I reckon same company but not friends) said "yes... go complain" grinZ... and that guy was super entertaining... we were laughing so much that we were still in a giggly mood... :)

Today we went to 1 U and then took a love gety... turned out pretty dark tho... but I relaly like it!!! lets take nicer ones next time!!!

Got back from a 4 day short shopping + holiday thing in Singapore... and since my "adorable cousin" tells me to blog about her, I did hehe...

Brought her to Singapore...

Day 1.

Went to Singapore after lunch at about 3. Then while on the bus, Jc's mum called me, and said next time if I have some time, if I could just bring him to Singapore along? and I said yes... but I dun think I'll have some time now anymore... cuz I'm going back next saturday already... can U believe it???? next saturday... man... that's so fast... am SOOOOOOO gonna miss home... anyway, met up with Zhenwei, and Adeline the ding dong was carrying a huge luggage bag, cuz she brought heaps of stuff to Singapore... and she hurt her shoulder!!! Anyway, met Zhenwei for dinner... and had a short chat... and we walked around... gosh he was sooooo quiet man... and he was such a darling cuz he carried Adeline's bag for her... hahhaa thanks man... I think it was pretty heavy and thank God U were there to help us... I know it was pretty heavy for U but u still held it all the way to the MRT station... thank U :) and we gave him crap about valentines day present which he hasn't even bought... hahaha bad boy bad boy... then met up with er jie jie n her colleagues for karaoke session... n there were these 2 totally tone deaf ppl... 1 guy was quite cute... but can't sing... that's quite sad... then that night got home at about 2:30, slept at 3+ and the next day Adeline complained er jie jie was punching her at night... (ps Adeline thinks I had pretty intelligent conversation with Zhenwei... actually I ain't dumb... it's just that when I go out with Adeline, I talk dumb and when we don't actually talk dumb we go "omg this is too smart" and we start talking about nails)

Day 2

Met up with Huai Tze for lunch... at Sakae Sushi... then we talked so much about lesbians too!!! hahahaha then later met uo with er jie jie at Jrg point... did some shopping, I bought stuff from chamelon and OP... gosh they were having a massive sale and U should have seen the number of kiasu singaporeans in there grabbing at the t-shirts and flip flops!!! and we went in and got 2 t shirts for wei cuz he spoilt his t shirt and he was very upset... and then went over to Changi airport. Met up with wei and had fish and co for dinner... had the fish and chips and seafood platter for 2... was really good... then sent er jie jie to the departure halll then later met up with xd, edwin and daniel... sometimes think Xuande's really corny and stuff... and it makes it annoying at times... and then Adeline was really quiet... I reckon she just wasn't in the mood... griNZ...

Day 3

Church in a looooooooooong time!!!!! hahaha finally got the chance to go to church with Huai Tze and Wen... and we went for lunch with Wen's and gf, Lynn... was very nice and interesting... WEn kept talking about stupid stuff like drug addicts and stuff... think lynn's really lucky cuz I'd love to have wen for my bf too... but he's my cousin... really big BUT!!! hahaha... and he was really stupid... Lynn ganged up with us to bully him... there was once he said "Punctuality's my middle name" and Lynn called him Mr Tan Punctuality Wen... and we said... or Punctuality Tan Huai Wen would be nice... really relaly very amusing and entertaining... after that went for karaoke... then went home...

Day 4

Came home from Singapore... yaaaaay home sweet home... :) met up with Sheryl... and then just talked a bit... Adeline the bimbo likes her... hehhee

ok I just did my nails... was expensive... RM 64... manicure + nail art... but given a chance... I prolly wudn't do it anymore... or maybe before wedding... haha

Below are the Rules:

Rule 1: List 5 weird or random things about yourself

- I want to get married at a young age.
- I am a die hard romantic; yet in a way, I'm practical.
- I lose weight during study week and shopping.
- Looks don't really matter to me, but conversation level and maturity and how much fun I have really matters
- I don't think I'm weird enough to list out 5 weird/random points.

Rule 2: 5 people whom i want to do the quiz

- Adeline
- Kailin
- Sheryl
- Huiyi (who's done it)
- can't think of the last

Rule 3: Next, leave a comment "you are tagged" on their blog and ask them to read your blog for rules.ciao

People who've been keeping close contact with me on MSN know that... *gasps* I'm in love!!!!

Sorry I took so long to reveal this news to you guys... just because... I'm too busy being "in love".

Ok... I shall... show U a pic of my beau?????

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Handsome... no???

hahaha... OK get a life, U tell me... but he's just my current interest... of course, he'll probably get kicked off the board a while later, and stay together with Jerry Yan, He Jun Xiang and Jang Dong Gun... never to be mentioned again... hahaha (oops am I just contradicting myself)...

Here's introducing you Ming Dao...

From club 183...



haha sorry I ain't THAT interested in all the other guys although I think Wang Shao Wei's teeth are pretty cute... BUT that's only one factor... Ming Dao has got bushy eyebrows and cute smile... HE WINS HANDS DOWN!!!! Not to mention I'm so totally uninterested in the other guys... BORING... hahaha

ah well... enough of that drooling *smacks myself* get a life...

Reflections...

Went back to SP for Hong's Wedding... met up with my cousins... I realised as U grow older, the same coarse language, same inconsiderate-ness by some ppl seem to get to you. Like bite your nerves... Not pointing names, but sometimes I get so annoyed by the childishness of ppl... and they are like years older than us... Heaps older... haha Adeline U know who I'm talking about... I just get so annoyed by this neverending battle between people... people who stuck together when they were poor, only to break their bond years later... people who don't even want to acknowledge their own siblings... Truly, when is this going to end?

Oooo Adeline thinks chee is cute!!! And amen to that I think so too... but too bad he's my own cousin... and he's my tang2 ge1 still... and Hua's getting more and more good looking...which is good... too bad he's my tang2 di4 too... hahaha and it really upsets me when I see people smoking heaps... they trying to spoil their own body is it? and even so, aren't they even sparing a thought for their own family???? Passive smoking does more harm than active U know that??? *knocks their heads*

Haven't yet uploaded SP photos... hahah till then, will show U guys our pretty faces, me, tze lin, adeline and tze wei!!! :) (ps... dun like me saying we're pretty???? too bad... cuz I think we are...! hhahahahahaha)

Listened to CHC sermon yesterday... about living up to your full potential... I want to do that n glorify God... do things for him... but all I can do is hope and pray that he will strengthen me against obstacles... because part of me feels like I'm almost giving up

Today Pastor was talking about this guy

Another pastor... forgot his name... went to tobago, where he was leading a worship team in a Leper camp... and then this lady... she suffered from Leprosy... and her nose dropped off and her ears dropped off... and she raised up her hand... whereby her fingers had already fallen off... and she said she wanted to ask them to sing "Count my blessings"...

"Count my blessings"

Truly, a person who have lived life and seen it... can only say that at times of adversity...

I can't stand people who say "life sucks" all the time... because it doesn't. U can say... "Yeah... Kaiting... so U can say... so U say life doesn't suck??? try being in MY shoes... try staying in Singapore... U Lucky fella... U get to go overseas to study! Of course life doesn't suck!"

Yeah... I know many ppl will roll their eyes at my *gasp* childish speech of life being beautiful...

But if someone who's lost nose, ears and fingers can truly say "count my blessings" why can't we??? Sometimes we focus too much on ourselves that we forget the truly beautiful things and the things that matter...

Like having pimples in opposed to.... actually being alive...

I think humans are just so selfish...

New Year's REsolution...

Think of 5 things that U can truly thank God for

1. Adeline :)

I went to watch just like heaven...

Man... it was soooo sweet

and it had a happy ending!!!!

What's better than good movies and happy endings???? I didn't cry much in this movie... but I was really touched by the stuff the guy said... and their love... and the fact that... yeah she didn't die... I love that show...

grinZ... sucker for happy endings...

I went to work today... had a rude shock

Sally didn't count the float properly... and when I re-counted it there were bits and pieces missing... and I counted it twice or even three times... and I found what I counted really correct... man and I was soooo annoyed... why can't anyone count out $200!!!! and I heard that she couldn't add her time sheet properly... ok... I know I'm mean...

But I think I just met Paris Hilton + Jessica Simpson...

Stop whining...

time for bed

weird weird weird weird weird...

How come this image of this guy keeps playing in my mind ah...

LZW's image...

So weird... weird... weird... weird... weird

Go away go away go away

in Jesus's name I command U to leave...

Somehow... I feel I'm putting too much expectations on myself... I don't really want to, but I am... somehow stressing myself out too much... I don't want myself to do anything wrong when I am at work... I don't want myself to show my incapabilities... and I try to cover up... and that makes me feel really stressed... at times... because I'm not perfect... hahaha but... I dunno what to say... crazy man... stressing myself up for nothing... maybe cuz my sis is so capable... and then people think that I'm quite good... so I want myself to become quite good too...

anyway... yeah... am finishing my 500 hours soon...

hehehe so far I'm working abt 75 hours in 2 weeks... just this week I'm workign 60 hours... so that's helping my 500 hours...

Thank God for that...

Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise...

Home on 9/1!!! Story that's happening is... Dad's not in JB on that day so he can't come pick me up... so I'll hafta go to sis's house to stay the night... which is quite good in a way... hehehe that means that day... I'll have my luggage and heaps of shopping!!!!!! yaaaaay hehehe... ok fine... I'm spoilt... oh man I can't wait lah...

http://venuschun.blogspot.com/2005/12/low-life-character-i-sadly-know.html

U tell me la...

HOW CAN THERE BE ANYONE... ANYONE ON EARTH... WHO ACTUALLY HAS SUCH BAD MANNERS???!!!!

Yes... and by that... I'm NOT using my sicnature colour... why???

JUST TO SHOW MY ANGER... at that... what-cha-ma-call-it... GUY??? Nah I don't think so... teensy weensy bopper...

Yes... and the basis of your breakup?? Huiyi... because his mum says so??? Thank God you guys aren't together anymore... cuz I think I'll personally strangle him with both my bare hands... and not bother even if the cops come for me... because because...

I am simply so mad and annoyed at the XY gender right now...

no sorry... just at that ONE person...

Come on man... DOES HE EVEN HAVE BRAINS???

Common courtesy... I wouldn't allow that to happen would I??? I wouldn't tear up what my ex bf gave me can... especially since he made it for me... hahah girl... I suggest U go kick him in his behind (if he even has one) and just get back that cd that U spent ages lining up for him k...

He's not worth it..

Ah forget it... he's not even worth my wrath...

BUT why do I feel so irritated by this... can U even call him person... cuz I can't detect a trace of a brain around him... maybe he does have one... just at the wrong spot??? He ought to go for a check up... cuz I think... uni might not suit him...

Come on man... where has his upbringing brought him to??? Where's that word "gentleman" gone to??? And come on... if U leaving her because of another girl... Don't give some lame ass excuse that "sorry... mum dun allow me to date" U only dragging your mum into hot soup... Puhleeze... do U even have... um... *whisper* balls ??? Sorry for my usage of language guys... but... HOW ON EARTH DO U FIND IT EASY TO COMPREHEND WHEN SOMEONE WANTS TO BREAKUP BECAUSE HIS MUM SAY SO... and less than what 3 months later is again together with someone else??? SOMEONE WHOM U HAVE BEEN DENYING... SAYING NO STRINGS ATTACHED WHEN IT'S OBVIOS THERE'S SOMETHING GOING ON??? And don't think U can hurt someone and just step over her heart like that without... I dunno...

oh I'm just annoyed... at that ***hole

and I thought U were a gentleman...

*looks sheepish*

Sorry guys... wrong judge of character...

I just needed to rave

I'm ok now